I honestly should be studying. And I’ll get to that in a while. But right now, I feel like sulking. Well, more like wanting the earth to swallow me whole right about now.
I’m not the same person. I compare myself to the person I was a year ago and I’ve changed far beyond recognition. My faith needs some serious uplifting, my study habits (or at least the way my head retains the information) has been rendered almost unable to serve its purpose, and my sense of fun and spontaneity has flown out the window. I do everything dispassionately that I have to mentally berate myself for even having the effrontery to ask for things I do not deserve.
Sometimes I wonder what’s made me change so radically. I feel like I used to have more substance as a person, and now I’m just as shallow as a puddle.
I need purpose.
